Recently,
I was reading a blog and posted some comments.
Haha...
Even when I posted the comments,
I had to think twice before I posted it.
I thought I should regrouping my idea.
The topic was about "Change & Origin"
----- following I prefer using present tense -----
----- & I do not mean to do anythings, just my personal point of view after I have gone through 22 years in my life -----
----- & I just an IT people without learning any psychology -----
Have you ever understand who are you?
Even myself also not really sure who am I.
(Sorry to the person I commenting... Even myself also cannot give a accurate answer...)
The logically & simple answer shall be "A creature who lives in the Earth"
Or to be more accurately "A member of the species Homo sapiens" -- extracted from dictionary or wiki
Sorry, I am talking some rubbish again... XP
I believe,
Since babe,
people has started to change,
Along the all the way.
In the earlier stage (babe stage)
people who influence you a lots is your family.
Under this stage,
you are taught by them about don't & do.
Of course,
you will always follow them.
Moving to 2nd stage (primary student stage)
people who influence you a lots are your friends & teachers.
In most cases,
every time you found out something different and your family never teach you,
you will tend to learn it.
Then the 3rd stage (secondary student stage)
a stage where you started to think.
However,
you will still do not have the determination of right and wrong.
And this goes with your friends.
Until the final stage (high school or working stage)
then only you are given some determination of right and wrong.
I just summary out the process for the usual cases.
When talking about your identity/personality/characteristics or the more accurate word, your "origin".
No doubt...
My selection is gone to the moment that I appear in the world.
That is the most 'origin' about me without any influences from third parties.
The one most understand my 'origin' shall be my family.
Even myself,
frequently asking the same questions to me "Who are you?",
cannot get an answer.
Because I,
myself cannot even understand myself.
& I remember the first time I ask this question is Standard 1.
& I have no idea why I come out this stupid question all in sudden in my mind.
During my secondary school life,
or more accurately in upper secondary school life.
I feel that all the people surrounded me is that faked.
Faked because of do not want any troublesome things to be happened*
At that period,
I was no confident in who am I talking with,
because even myself also do not know what am I doing now.
Is liked everything is locked,
what I needed to do is follow the rule & schedule.
I ask myself, what do the meaning of 'freedom' bring?
Now,
I think that,
a human,
should be divided into 2 layers.
Origin & Will (Wall),
Origin is a 'thing' or your truth self,
Will or can be said as a firewall,
that set a rule to control your Origin.
(I use the word will because I played a game & one of the attribute is 'Will Power' which to control your defense power against the physical & magical attack)
The Will here is to rule your physical body not to act as what Origin wants to be.
& I always think that,
you will never behave as you anymore since the existence of the Will.
Of course,
no one born to be perfect,
which mean the one who has a perfect Origin without setting the Will. (Sound like a character who default defense is infinity)
When talking about Change,
in my word that is setting some rules in your Will.
Originally,
you are a lazy people.
You tend to change to a hardworking people,
in your Will,
you make a rule "do not lazy".
Whether you can really change to the ideal people you want is depending on how strong your Will is.
For girl case,
Originally,
you are a fat people.
You set a rule "I want to eat less" in your Will.
and the rest has to depend on how strong the Will is.
XP
*PS - Sorry for making a serious topic include some funny game stuff
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